Thursday, July 6, 2006

Poetry Thursday

The challenge this week is to share a "poem that deals with an intense personal experience." I've never really talked about this experience before, but for some reason, today I'm posting a poem about it that the whole world can view. Go back to high school with me for a minute...

Josh & Skip

Forever Altered

We’ve been pretending that this doesn’t exist.
Now we’ve both said it out loud.
Can we still pretend?
If not, how do I make this choice?
I sit here, propelled toward you
seemingly without a choice,
like a negative charge
toward her positive match.

The last conversation I had with him,
I told him I loved him and hung up the phone.
Could it be true
while here I sit
and my soul aches
because I didn’t meet you first;
didn’t love you first?
How could I have known then
when I promised him those things
that this would come next?
How could I be ready
for this kind of love?
I never knew
it could rock you to the core;
that it could set you on fire;
that it could infuse every thought and emotion.

If I leave
was it all a lie?
It doesn’t feel like a lie,
but to him it will.
Our language needs more words
to describe “love.”
Now I see obvious differences—
I love you both.
It is not the same love.
If I leave
will you come with me?
His best friend
and his girlfriend.
How do we do that
to someone we both love?

I am only a person.
Am I supposed to resist
a soul altering love?
Am I to wish
that I didn’t get myself
into this situation?
Because then
I would be missing
this.
And right now
Nothing else matters anymore.
But
this.


To read other poems from Poetry Thurday participants, go here.

7 comments:

Jessa said...

Wow, Britt, that's really putting yourself out there.....


Brave.

brittany said...

uh-oh, now I'm second guessing myself. :) I think I'm in denial that people actually read this!

Left-handed Trees... said...

Very deep and beautiful words...I appreciate the unflinching honesty. Scary to speak the truth...but powerful to those of us who get to hear it.

Kara said...

Brave, Yeah sure, I guess. I mean, it was high school, right? I got sent to a different state because I was in love. Life goes on and love moves with it. What I really want to know is who is it about...I don't recognize those dudes!

brittany said...

The infamous duo, Skip and Josh. Nothing like my sister to keep it real. Love you, girl.

Colorsonmymind said...

Oh how difficult.....
so glad you shared this

Anonymous said...

So, what did you do? Stay true or switch? I've been the "best friend" in this trio before...but it all turned out well in the end.

Beautiful poem.