Tuesday, February 20, 2007

SPC: Black & White


My mom once told me I was too black and white. I think she felt like I was judging her. Maybe she felt like I wasn’t giving her enough room to be human. She may be right about me. I have a strong sense of right and wrong, and I get frustrated when people don’t act accordingly when I think they should know better. I hold a high standard, especially with the people who mean the most to me.

But I know there are lots of shades in between the two lightest and darkest ones. I know what it’s like to falter. I have felt temptation and given in. I have needed forgiveness and mercy from loved ones and from God. I can not judge; it is not my place. I choose to love anyway. I choose to forgive. I guess that’s pretty black and white too, even though the emotions that go along with it come in all shades of grey.

self portrait challenge


Krista said...

I love this. Shades of grey... so true.

Abby said...

Very thought-provoking, especially since I have had a very "grey" moral issue on my mind lately...maybe I will post about it and get some opinions.

Rosie said...

Your post is very provoking. The picture is as well.
I read your post awhile ago about deciding on another baby. I struggled getting mine. Meds for the first two. I wouldn't do that again and was shocked with our third. My husband thought we could be done. I didn't know. I wasn't ready to do anything permanent. It was getting to the point of that decision because I didn't want to have 12 years between and be in my 40's and pregnant. Well, I got pregnant again, almost five years between the last two. That little blessing has been a joy. I hold every breath a little longer, I smell his head, kiss his cheek. I knew he was our last--I just knew it.
We will not have more. However, I sometimes am saddened to think I will never participate with God in another miracle. I loved having those angels under my heart.

Don't let anyone tell you there is a perfect # of children. Whatever you have is perfect for you. Sometimes, what you have, it is enough. Just listen to your inner self. It is almost always right on target.

Susannah said...

oh my, this is a stunning portrait - love it! xo

Boho Girl said...

beautiful portrait. love the composition.

yes, we must acknowledge and embrace the shades of gray.

a beautiful lesson that we all need to work on.

love to you...xoxo

LeS said...

This makes me think so much of my own way of being. Time to take a deep breath and embrace the greys I suppose :) Thanks!

Colorsonmymind said...

I love the photo. The upcast of your eyes-oh so pretty.

I can be very black and white also. Shades of gray are truly magnificent.

Anonymous said...

You have the most beautiful eyes. I don't think it's a bad thing to be black and white about right and wrong - you're such a strong person.