Thursday, June 19, 2008

midnight blogging

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Yes, I’ve been an errant blogger. But here it is the middle of the night and I can’t sleep, so I thought I’d do a little update while I’m feeling all open and chatty.

The truth is, there are several things getting in the way of having a well functioning blog, the first being the fact that I am bored with writing about myself. I keep thinking that if I’m bored with myself, then why would anyone want to come read about it? I also have been trying to cut down on internet time. Then there’s the whole issue with putting too much information out there. I keep wavering back and forth about having a private blog for the sake of keeping my little people out of the eyes of potential psychos. But there’s a whole aspect of blogging that I love because it is public. I can’t seem to effectively separate my children from my blog. What have some of your experiences been? Does anyone have any words of advice or big ideas?

I’ve been spending my time in the garden (but not quite enough time—I have visions for the yard that require lots of time and money but I have neither at my disposal at the moment.) That’s part of what I love about gardening—the ongoing process of beautifying your surroundings.

I’ve been spending my time being a business owner. That’s a lot of work. I hope it pays off in the end. It has been exciting and challenging. Surprisingly there has been more left brained work than right brained work lately and I feel like I need to spend some time being creative in a way that has nothing to do with work. I am looking forward to Squam. I’ve never been part an “artist community” and I can’t wait to go and absorb it all up.

I’ve been spending time preparing lessons. This Sunday I am teaching 2 classes at church which means I am forced to not procrastinate. So I have been in the midst of pondering in between moments of feeling very human. At one moment I will feel very weak and rebellious and then the next I am thanking God for my gift of faith that seems to simplify my life and bring unspeakable joy. But in the midst of being human, I have learned in my spiritual practices to recognize and understand and know certain truths: God not only exists, but is very loving and present. He is the Father of my spirit. Jesus Christ is not just a good man, but my Savior who actually sacrificed everything and through His atonement, I can overcome and be forgiven anything, thank goodness. The power of the Holy Ghost is available to us, individually, any time and any place that we put forth the effort to ask and then listen. Spiritual knowledge is just as real as any other kind of knowledge. There is meaning here in this life; there is a plan and a purpose.

There are other things I’ve been spending my time on, but suddenly it doesn’t matter—I’m feeling tired enough that I might be able to fall back asleep…

10 comments:

Vanessa said...

I love reading your blog, I didnt know you to well when we lived out there mostly because I was to shy and scared to talk to anyone. I always really looked up to you, your blog really inspires me. If you put it to private you will have to let me peak in.
-Vanessa Brown (and here is my site....www.inevergrewup.net design is not done yet)

Clairissa said...

Love, love, love your testimony. Thank you for sharing. I've taken my kiddos off my public blog completely now and limit them to my "protected" blog where only about 20 people have access to. There are just too many weirdos out there, I've heard too many stories, that I can't trust the public domain with their sweet little faces.

Kara said...

So much for casual! ha ha(jk) I loved it. Anything you write is so interesting, I could never get bored of you!

Left-handed Trees... said...

I understand so well walking that line between revealing and holding things close. I don't have much by way of advice, because I am still working on it myself--but I just wanted to say yes, I know what you mean. Catching up on your posts today was a delight...
Love,
D.

calibosmom said...

Part of me wants to start a private little blog with close friends (no lurkers allowed). Then I think I'll be more inclined to really let loose! Let me know if you want in.

megg said...

Oh I so get it about being bored with writing about yourself!! I get that a lot! But please keep writing - I promise not to be bored!

~home bodies~ said...

we love you over here in california.

Moxie said...

Britt - keep writing. Those who love you, and those who probably just like you too, want to hear what you have to say. Push through that boredom baby and don't do anything silly like delete your blog. ha ha

Moxie

Wendy said...

Hey Britt,

I included you in my post. You should go check it out.

jenica said...

i'm glad you were up at midnight to post this. i can't wait to get all squamy with you. ;-D i love how blogging has changed my life, literally, and that's what keeps me from switching to private. i keep an eye on my statcounter just to watch for weird activity. although i'm not sure what i would do if i saw weird activity... other than freak out. hmmm. i'm not being helpful am i?

two lessons? i hope it all went well. i'm sure you're a great teacher.

i'm never bored with this blog or your thoughts or ideas. let them flow out. do you remember that talk by pres eyring? the one about writing down every day the moments where you saw the hand of the lord working in your life? try that out. it's unbelievable the difference it makes.

xoxo